December 2009
22 posts
Finally!
10 hours until the new year!
I can’t wait. WE GRADUATE THIS YEAR.
I just want to meet new people and new friends. I’d like to start over with a new crowd of faces. I want a new best friend who I’m NOT in love with. I want to forget the asshole who broke my heart.
tabula rasa!
my first love to my first loss
after crying my eyes out, torturing myself with watching The Notebook, and seeing him to give his stuff back, (OH, and eating a lot of junk food) I have to admit that I feel a bit better.
I’m still heartbroken and blah blah blah, but I don’t feel like my world is ending anymore. I think it’s ironic how I’ve gone from the girl who’s never needed any boyfriend to the...
what the hell?
This must be the year for celebrity deaths:
Farrah Fawcett, Billy Mays, Michael Jackson, Britney Murphey, Chris Henry, Heath Ledger
and now Jimmy Sullivan from Avenged Sevenfold.
Of course there was many more than this, but these are the ones we remember.
2009, please end before you claim more celebrities…more people for that matter.
2010.
I have given myself until January 2, 2010 to wallow. After that, I’m going to begin the process of moving on.
I can’t wait until 2010; I just want a fresh slate to start out on because the end of 2009 is sucking.
I have a whole list of resolutions that I’m going to type up and print out for my wall:
run a marathon in 4 to 4.5 hours
do 30 perfect pushups
do 3 pull ups
lose...
Leave the Pieces.
You’re not sure that you love me, but you’re not sure enough to let me go. Baby it ain’t fait, you know, to keep me hanging ‘round. You say you don’t want to hurt me, don’t want to see my tears, so why are you still standing here just watching me drown? And it’s alright, yeah I’ll be fine; just take your love and hit the road. There’s nothing...
Secret #3
I just want to be happy for once.
Reality Check #3
With every year we live, we realize how much more it takes for us to be happy.
Typical.
Here’s to the girl who fell head over heels for the boy who merely stumbled…
time to move on- of course, that’s easier said than done.
Secret #2
I feel like I’m only wanted for my body by every guy who has an interest in me, and I don’t understand why. I’m not the type of girl who wears risque clothes and shows what she’s got to the world, nor do I throw myself on guys to beg for attention. Is it really so much to ask for someone to want me for what I offer intellectually and emotionally, rather than physically?...
:/
The last time my boyfriend and I broke up, he told me that he realized that he wasn’t IN LOVE with me. Long story short, I got really upset and cried like a baby. I’ve been replaying that scene over and over in my head, and I thought that maybe he said that out of anger or something, so I worked up the courage to ask him about it the other night…I asked him if he was IN LOVE with...
Reality Check #2
No one is ever going to be completely satisfied; thus, no one is ever going to be completely happy.
Secret #1
It bothers me when I have stronger feelings for someone than they have for me…
For example, when I say “I love you more” to someone, I cross my fingers, hoping that when the other person says it back, they really mean it.
I’m always hoping that I love the other person less than they love me. How narcissistic.
Merry Christmas!
Today has been an awesome day! I got everything I’ve asked for and more!
I love Christmas :)
Memory
It’s unfortunate: I have the worst memory. I can never remember any memories people bring up that involve me, which is why I bought a new camera. I’m also planning to buy a journal the next time I’m out because we only get one life to live and remember.
I used to keep a diary when I was a kid, but I wrote useless junk in there beside pathetic pictures of nonsense.
I feel like...
“Life is ours; we live it our way.”
“I’m intimidated by the fear of being average.
-Tay Swift”
accomplishments
I wanted to wait until grades post on Saturday to see if i REALLY reached all my goals for this year, but what the heck…I’m feeling very accomplished tonight.
I earned my blue belt tonight; it was completely unexpected. But moving up to the next level is more than just earning the belt…
Of course I’m proud of myself for the belt, but I feel accomplished because of what my...
“It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but...”
Oh Disney, I hate you so
I got accepted to FSU, and I’m stoked about it. The thing is, though, I can’t go there even though it’s my first choice college. Going away from home is more than my parents can afford, and Nova is handing me a free ride.
I just don’t want this year to end.
The thing that sucks the most is that my boyfriend/best friend is going to FSU. Yes, I know that the majority of...
Relief
School is over.
I don’t care how I did on my finals anymore.
Finally a well-deserved break!
I’m happpppy again, and life couldn’t get much better. My family and I are getting along quite well, and the Christmas cheer is definitely in the air at my house. My mom has been baking nonstop, and there are a bunch of presents under the Christmas tree.
There is definitely change in...
“You have to fight for your right to party.”
Of course...
Life came and obliterated my perfect happiness.
What now?