Sunday, Jan.17
I really should be writing my paper on Beowulf, but I figured Tumblr was more important at the moment. This weekend has been great; having the opportunity to hang out with an old friend you don’t get to see because they live 1,000 miles away is an amazing thing, even if for one night. However, have you ever had one of those feelings like, “I know if I do something with friends and certain people aren’t invited, I could potentially get blamed for it.”? I hate it, and it was bothering me the whole time I was supposed to be enjoying myself. It was bothering me so much that I started venting to my mother about all the bad things that could happen if information was leaked among my circle of friends. That’s why I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a good person at heart, but a bad person through action. I purposely avoid people and going out. I figure that if I am out with a group of friends, even if I am having a good time, I’d still rather be by myself. Weird, right? And then there are situations when I am with a group a friends and I still feel like an outcast; maybe because I’m not close to what’s going on in their social life when I am not around?
I guess the only thing to look forward to at the moment is February 12th and April 1st, but thats not even guaranteed. I guess its back to Beowulf…
omgsh, what a coincidence! i’m staying home tonight because of this exact reason. great minds think alike trevor <3
